"walau xberjemput, oleh kerana datangnya dr Atas, tetap sy syg".
kuasa Allah tu sgt besar. kalu kita rasa kita dh boleh kontrol semua, mmg salah. totally wrong!
sedar xsedar, rancangan kita xpernah nk menjadi, ada mcm2 je halangan. ada je bende2 yg xkene. ada je alasan yg nk buat bende tu xjadi.
sedar xsedar kita dh asyik salahkan org lain.
kite mungkin ckp canni: "org tu xpandai buat kerja".
atau canni: "ini semua salah die, kalu die xbuat camtu, xjd canni"
canni ke: "ape lg yg die xpuas hatinye. semua aku dh buat dh. xboleh jugak.habis tu nk aku buat apa?"
ape lg yg boleh kita buat, kita buat, sbb n luah rs marah, rs xpuas hati bile yg dirancang xmenjadi. kita lupa fakta. apa yg nyata. org2 tua selalu ckp bende ni. pepatah pun bunyi same "kita hanya merancang tp Tuhan yg menentukan"
kite anggap itu cume ckp org tue..kita taksub sampai kite lupe ade kuasa yg lebih tinggi kat atas sana. bila dh ada masalah, pada siapa yg patut kita mintak tlg?
Pada Allah lah.
tp org ckp canni kt kita: "itulah die, dh susah br nk kenal sejadah. br nk kenal Allah"
kita nk buat apa bile ayat2 ni masuk kt cuping telinga kita yg mmg dh sedia panas dgn masalah2?
jgn buat ape2. jadilah katak yg pekak. ( dh pernah bace kisah katak yg pekak?, kalu dh, mesti phm)
sy xnk jd derhaka.
sy nk jd anak yg baik. walau sy tau sy ni bnyk yg curang. takut xsempat nk mintak ampun ngan my emak n abah sblm tutup mata.
sy nk jd apa yg sepatutnye org baik buat bila dia ada masalah.
sy nk semua insan yg sy syg pn buat bende yg same.
sbb......................
sy syg semua.
Khamis, Oktober 29, 2009
Selasa, Oktober 27, 2009
fever~~
sy adalah antara manusia yg jarang sekali jatuh sakit.
seingat sy, las time sy kena demam adalah pd tahun 2007.
mlm smlm, sy demam. secare tiba2. tiba2 sakit tekak. tiba2 hidung tersumbat. tiba2 demam.
sy korek2 dlm almari dan laci, xder ubat, panadol pun xder. (inilah jd bile jarang sakit, xpernah spare ubat, sbb kalu sy simpan ubat, mesti xboleh makan dh, dh expired)
yg ada cuma kool fever. dh lupe tahun bile sy beli. agaknye sy beli masa aini demam dulu. sy cuba cari expired date die, tp xjumpe...xlarat dh nk carik, terlalu pening. terlalu sejuk badan. terketar2.
kool fever. itu je ubat yg sy ada. letak di kepala, cuba tidur. susah. rs semua xkena. kaki sejuk sgt pulak. kipas yg dipasang 2 rs terlalu sejuk cm 5. bagun pulak cari stokin. baring semula. rasa sejuk lagi. selimut ni dh cm xcukup tebal. sy amik kain sembahyang lapis atas selimut. ok tenang sikit.
terbangun lagi. tekak rs dahaga. hadoi....walau bdn xlarat, bgn jugak minum air.
baring semula. kepale rs sakit pulak. hadoiii.....xde org nk tlg urut, urut sendiri. sakit. xreti urut. tarik rambut ajelah.
jam 2.12 pagi, dh rs kebah demam. kaki yg berstokin rs panas. selimut tebal dh rs menyesakkan. ok, sy buang stokin dan selimut berlapis2..tidur semula. kepale rase sakit lg, tp xper, esok pagi br carik ubat. boleh mintak panadol dgn hani bila dia dh bgn.
sy xselesa rs sakit. skrg sy phm perasaan org yg selalu sakit. mmg sgt xselesa. sy mesti bersyukur selama ni sy sentiasa sihat. :)
kepala masih pening2 lg. tp jgn manjakan diri sgt...
Alhamdulillah.
seingat sy, las time sy kena demam adalah pd tahun 2007.
mlm smlm, sy demam. secare tiba2. tiba2 sakit tekak. tiba2 hidung tersumbat. tiba2 demam.
sy korek2 dlm almari dan laci, xder ubat, panadol pun xder. (inilah jd bile jarang sakit, xpernah spare ubat, sbb kalu sy simpan ubat, mesti xboleh makan dh, dh expired)
yg ada cuma kool fever. dh lupe tahun bile sy beli. agaknye sy beli masa aini demam dulu. sy cuba cari expired date die, tp xjumpe...xlarat dh nk carik, terlalu pening. terlalu sejuk badan. terketar2.
kool fever. itu je ubat yg sy ada. letak di kepala, cuba tidur. susah. rs semua xkena. kaki sejuk sgt pulak. kipas yg dipasang 2 rs terlalu sejuk cm 5. bagun pulak cari stokin. baring semula. rasa sejuk lagi. selimut ni dh cm xcukup tebal. sy amik kain sembahyang lapis atas selimut. ok tenang sikit.
terbangun lagi. tekak rs dahaga. hadoi....walau bdn xlarat, bgn jugak minum air.
baring semula. kepale rs sakit pulak. hadoiii.....xde org nk tlg urut, urut sendiri. sakit. xreti urut. tarik rambut ajelah.
jam 2.12 pagi, dh rs kebah demam. kaki yg berstokin rs panas. selimut tebal dh rs menyesakkan. ok, sy buang stokin dan selimut berlapis2..tidur semula. kepale rase sakit lg, tp xper, esok pagi br carik ubat. boleh mintak panadol dgn hani bila dia dh bgn.
sy xselesa rs sakit. skrg sy phm perasaan org yg selalu sakit. mmg sgt xselesa. sy mesti bersyukur selama ni sy sentiasa sihat. :)
kepala masih pening2 lg. tp jgn manjakan diri sgt...
Alhamdulillah.
Sabtu, Oktober 24, 2009
its been a while....
dh lame sy xupdate. balik umah lame sgt.pas2 balik utp terkecoh2 buat keje, yerlah dh balik umah namenyer, mmg xbuat keje la...
mane nk prepare sblm masuk lab, mane nk bace journal, nk wt summary, nk tunjuk kt sv. ermm... suke sgt bile tgk kawan2 kt sini yg bagus. keje derang tip top. dtg lab dr awal pg, mlm hari br balik rumah. conference paper bnyk, IEEE sume... journal pun dh bnyk accepted. derang bace journal religously tau... cam sy tgh bace novel.. sy pun pelik kenape kalu bace novel, sy bleh terus menerus bace sampai xtdo. kalu journal xleh la pulak nk buat cam2...
padahal itu sume dh kawen, ada anak dan isteri. boleh je derang bahagikan masa nk buat sume keje.
sy ni, ape2 pun xde, jage diri sendiri je, itu pun research serlow sgt..sgt.. nk buat summary satu page, kene bace journal tu bnyk2 kali. sbb bace sekali xpaham. kalu sekali bace dh amik masa 2 or 3 hari, kalu bace berkali2, lebih kurang 2 minggu br dpt buat summary satu journal. kalu jumpe sv, takkan nk ckp bace 2 journals je sebulan? sempat ke nk abes dlm mase 3 thn. dh la topik xdecide lg. canne nk speed up ni? ermm...
mmg org kate, nk start adalah perkara yg paling susah sekali. hadoiii..... sy hrpkn doa2....
Allah, tolong sy.
Terima kasih.
mane nk prepare sblm masuk lab, mane nk bace journal, nk wt summary, nk tunjuk kt sv. ermm... suke sgt bile tgk kawan2 kt sini yg bagus. keje derang tip top. dtg lab dr awal pg, mlm hari br balik rumah. conference paper bnyk, IEEE sume... journal pun dh bnyk accepted. derang bace journal religously tau... cam sy tgh bace novel.. sy pun pelik kenape kalu bace novel, sy bleh terus menerus bace sampai xtdo. kalu journal xleh la pulak nk buat cam2...
padahal itu sume dh kawen, ada anak dan isteri. boleh je derang bahagikan masa nk buat sume keje.
sy ni, ape2 pun xde, jage diri sendiri je, itu pun research serlow sgt..sgt.. nk buat summary satu page, kene bace journal tu bnyk2 kali. sbb bace sekali xpaham. kalu sekali bace dh amik masa 2 or 3 hari, kalu bace berkali2, lebih kurang 2 minggu br dpt buat summary satu journal. kalu jumpe sv, takkan nk ckp bace 2 journals je sebulan? sempat ke nk abes dlm mase 3 thn. dh la topik xdecide lg. canne nk speed up ni? ermm...
mmg org kate, nk start adalah perkara yg paling susah sekali. hadoiii..... sy hrpkn doa2....
Allah, tolong sy.
Terima kasih.
Khamis, Oktober 08, 2009
Doing PhD is not easy
My emak really2 xbeberapa setuju bila sy ckp nk sambung PhD bila dh habis MSc.
Agaknya ini balasan kot.
After 2 months, still I don't have any proposal, topik pn xdok lg. sv pun xder lg. so, what can I say? My wrong? atau balasan?
ermmmm....................................
to tell the truth, doing Master by coursework is easier compared to do it by research. And only the strong can successfully finished the PhD. If they imposed a strict pre requisite to continue PhD such as pointer 3.5 and above, don't depend on it too much.
In doing PhD, is not the brain does the work, but it's The Heart.
don't trust me? try do the PhD. rasa sendiri. experience by yourself. i shall speak no more.
Agaknya ini balasan kot.
After 2 months, still I don't have any proposal, topik pn xdok lg. sv pun xder lg. so, what can I say? My wrong? atau balasan?
ermmmm....................................
to tell the truth, doing Master by coursework is easier compared to do it by research. And only the strong can successfully finished the PhD. If they imposed a strict pre requisite to continue PhD such as pointer 3.5 and above, don't depend on it too much.
In doing PhD, is not the brain does the work, but it's The Heart.
don't trust me? try do the PhD. rasa sendiri. experience by yourself. i shall speak no more.
Selasa, Oktober 06, 2009
Talentime.
I watched the movie after Yasmin left us forever. Here goes my favorite part. Written here it doesn’t give the same impact as watching the movie, I hope you can witness it by your eyes.
Anak Perempuan: Your are not fair, mum! You always favour your son!
Mak: You will be twenty soon and you are still childish.
Anak Perempuan: I am your baby.
Mak: Are you now? Are you a baby? He is your younger brother. You must give in. Now that your father is no longer around, both of you are my precious lights. Each time, one of you leave, my world darkens.
I always hated it when my emak keep yelling my name to do this and that. (Astaghfirullah) She let my brothers stay as there are. Which is watching television while I have to go inside and outside of the house to the kitchen alone. I feel so frustrated. The simplest work such as throwing the rubbish, she would call my name. I feel disgusts with the rubbish actually, that’s why I always ask my younger brother to do it. He get angry with me.
“ mimin, buang sampah”
“Ah, mak suruh saper? Kak ebby kn”
“pegi la mimin”
“ah..mak bukan suruh mimin, mak suruh kak ebby. Kak ebby pegi la”
“awok bukan buat ape pun. Duk tengok tv je. Gi la kejap. Buang sampah je”
“tak nok la. Kak ebby la”
And after that, my emak would scream my full name. she have become very angry because of our disagreement. Cakap jek bising tapi keje xjalan. I went to throw the rubbish. ( When she called my full name, it means she is seriously very very very angry). Before I went to the kitchen I would give my brother a very “kind” slap at this body. Heheheh….
After that, he would looking angry at me and try to repay my “kindness”. :P
Looking at the movie, now I understand how my mother’s feeling. She always favour her sons. I am the only one who is doing all the chores in the house. She doesn’t even teach my brothers to bring their dirty plates to the sink after eating. I feel burden with this boring house works.
In reality, this is the woman’s work. That’s what others expect me to do. Do the works without being asked to. I must know what that I have to do. It shows how good she teaches her daughter.
Maybe because I learn too much, I demand equal rights. I doesn’t believe only woman is responsible at the kitchen. I believe in helping each other is the best in showing love.
Now, I know she loves equally all her children. She has her special way to show her love to each of her child. I always complain to my emak just like Bhavani did, it just that my mother would not reply as the way that I wish she did.
Now I know the answer.
Now, who says single mother can’t bring up her children to be a good person?
I am the way I am.
Anak Perempuan: Your are not fair, mum! You always favour your son!
Mak: You will be twenty soon and you are still childish.
Anak Perempuan: I am your baby.
Mak: Are you now? Are you a baby? He is your younger brother. You must give in. Now that your father is no longer around, both of you are my precious lights. Each time, one of you leave, my world darkens.
I always hated it when my emak keep yelling my name to do this and that. (Astaghfirullah) She let my brothers stay as there are. Which is watching television while I have to go inside and outside of the house to the kitchen alone. I feel so frustrated. The simplest work such as throwing the rubbish, she would call my name. I feel disgusts with the rubbish actually, that’s why I always ask my younger brother to do it. He get angry with me.
“ mimin, buang sampah”
“Ah, mak suruh saper? Kak ebby kn”
“pegi la mimin”
“ah..mak bukan suruh mimin, mak suruh kak ebby. Kak ebby pegi la”
“awok bukan buat ape pun. Duk tengok tv je. Gi la kejap. Buang sampah je”
“tak nok la. Kak ebby la”
And after that, my emak would scream my full name. she have become very angry because of our disagreement. Cakap jek bising tapi keje xjalan. I went to throw the rubbish. ( When she called my full name, it means she is seriously very very very angry). Before I went to the kitchen I would give my brother a very “kind” slap at this body. Heheheh….
After that, he would looking angry at me and try to repay my “kindness”. :P
Looking at the movie, now I understand how my mother’s feeling. She always favour her sons. I am the only one who is doing all the chores in the house. She doesn’t even teach my brothers to bring their dirty plates to the sink after eating. I feel burden with this boring house works.
In reality, this is the woman’s work. That’s what others expect me to do. Do the works without being asked to. I must know what that I have to do. It shows how good she teaches her daughter.
Maybe because I learn too much, I demand equal rights. I doesn’t believe only woman is responsible at the kitchen. I believe in helping each other is the best in showing love.
Now, I know she loves equally all her children. She has her special way to show her love to each of her child. I always complain to my emak just like Bhavani did, it just that my mother would not reply as the way that I wish she did.
Now I know the answer.
Now, who says single mother can’t bring up her children to be a good person?
I am the way I am.
Puasa Qada' atau Puasa 6 Syawal?
Sy selalu konfius yg mana nk buat dulu. puasa Qada atau 6 Syawal? dgr2 ada org citer boleh combined 2 2 tu..ermm...ntah la kn....
mane betul.xtau.
Sy tahu dr seorang brother yg dulunya study kt UIA. dia dgr waktu sorang ustaz bg ceramah kt masjid UIA.
khabarnya begini:
1. Puasa Qada' and 6 Syawal tidak boleh dicombinedkn. kerana satunya Sunat dan satu lagi wajib. ia adalah 2 entiti yg totally different.
2. Sungguh pun puasa 6 Syawal adalah sunat manakala puasa Qada itu fardhu, tetapi oleh kerana waktunya amat terhad iaitu di dalm bulan Syawal shj, boleh kita mengpostpone puasa Qada'. kita tunaikan puasa 6 Syawal dahulu sblm habis bulan tersebut. puasa Qada' dipostponed after kita selesai Puasa 6 dan juga boleh ke bulan yang lain. Wallahua'lam.
Maaf xdpt sy sertakan nama ustaz tersebut, mahupun any hadis hasan berkenaan isu puasa ni. but, i think this can really help for us who are really confused about this issue. Insya Allah akan sy cuba dptkan nama ustaz tersebut. akan di update. Any silap dan khilaf, do not hesitate to show me the right path.
Toche.
Salam Syawal.
mane betul.xtau.
Sy tahu dr seorang brother yg dulunya study kt UIA. dia dgr waktu sorang ustaz bg ceramah kt masjid UIA.
khabarnya begini:
1. Puasa Qada' and 6 Syawal tidak boleh dicombinedkn. kerana satunya Sunat dan satu lagi wajib. ia adalah 2 entiti yg totally different.
2. Sungguh pun puasa 6 Syawal adalah sunat manakala puasa Qada itu fardhu, tetapi oleh kerana waktunya amat terhad iaitu di dalm bulan Syawal shj, boleh kita mengpostpone puasa Qada'. kita tunaikan puasa 6 Syawal dahulu sblm habis bulan tersebut. puasa Qada' dipostponed after kita selesai Puasa 6 dan juga boleh ke bulan yang lain. Wallahua'lam.
Maaf xdpt sy sertakan nama ustaz tersebut, mahupun any hadis hasan berkenaan isu puasa ni. but, i think this can really help for us who are really confused about this issue. Insya Allah akan sy cuba dptkan nama ustaz tersebut. akan di update. Any silap dan khilaf, do not hesitate to show me the right path.
Toche.
Salam Syawal.
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