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Kursus Ulum Al Quran

kursus ini akan diadakan this weekend.
bayaran dikenakan.
maybe dah hujung bulan, bajet agak menghalang pergerakan.

namun, bila kita berusah demi jalan Allah, Allah noted action kita tu.
bila kita jadi kurang masa rehat demi jalan Allah, Allah noted susah kita tu.


kalau Allah noted kita, Subhanallah....rewardnya tak tahu nak cakaplah betapa hebat.
apa kata guna masa yang hujung minggu ini untuk dapatkan reward yang duniawi,
dapatkan ilmu tentang Al-Quran.


sebab, masa sekolah dulu berapa minit sangatlah pendidikan agama dalam seminggu.
ustazah pening nak habiskan silibus dan nak naikkan peratusan lulus dan dapat A.
fokus mereka adalah prestasi.


tapi, fokus kursus ini ialah: kita.
bila kita belum jadikan Al-Quran sebagai sumber rujukan hidup,
makanya kursus ini untuk kita.

untuk kita belajar tentang AlQuran.
ya.
AlQuran pun perlu dipelajari.


kalau nak tukar pampers pun ayah kena belajar dari ibu,
apetah lagi AlQuran sebagai petunjuk ke jalan yang benar.

Ulum al Quran?

Ulum al-Quran merupakan antara ilmu Islam yang terpenting kerana ia adalah jalan bagi memahami Kitab Allah dan mengetahui hukum-hakamnya serta hikmah-hikmah yang terkandung di dalamnya.
Antara kepentingannya ialah:

1. Membantu untuk tadabbur dan faham al-Quran, seterusnya mengambil pengajaran dan hukum-hakam daripadanya dengan cara yang betul dan teliti. Hal ini sukar diperolehi tanpa mengetahui tentang cara bacaan al-Quran dan kepelbagaian bentuknya, sebab-sebab turunnya ayat, yang samar dan yang jelas daripadanya dan lain-lain lagi.

2. Menambahkan keyakinan terhadap al-Quran terutamanya yang berkaitan dengan kemukjizatannya, hukum-hakamnya dan pengajarannya. Keyakinan ini boleh dihasilkan dengan cara meneliti rahsia-rahsianya.

3. Memperkasakan diri dengan ilmu yang dapat mempertahankan kemuliaan dan kesucian Kitab Allah daripada serangan-serangan musuh.

4. Membekalkan diri dengan pengetahuan terhadap sumber utama agama bagi membolehkan diri membezakan antara fakta yang sahih dengan fakta yang palsu.

5. Mengetahui usaha-usaha yang telah dilakukan oleh para ulama sepanjang zaman bagi member khidmat keada Kitab Allah.

6. Menyucikan jiwa dengan cara membentuk ikatan yang kuat anara diri dengan wahyu Allah. Seterusnya mendapatkan ganjaran pahala di sisi Allah.

Untuk pendaftaran dan maklumat lanjut, boleh hubungi:
Bro Muhammad: 01121201435
Sis Syahirah: 0132829110

throw back

Air mata masih murah untuk kenangan yang berkait dengan Amma,

Semuanya kerana rindu.

Dulu,
Saya cuba sedaya upaya untuk baget strong.
Bagi saya berjaya untuk tidak menitiskan air mata di setiap rindu buat Amma adalah tanda saya makin matang dan tabah makin hari.

Namun,
Erti rindu bukanlah setakat itu.

Rindu itulah penghubung antara saya dan Allah.
Kerana jasad sudah tiada.
Yang ada untuk saya tadah bawa ke mana2 ialah kenangan. Rindu.

Rindu ini memang akan bersulam air mata dan rasa kejam yang amat.

Tapi inilah hadiah paling besar dari Allah.

Bagi saya,
Rindu buat saya ingat untuk berdoa pada Allah untuk berkati Amma di sana.

Rindu buat saya ingat pada mati. Yang satu hari nanti saya juga akan menyusul Amma.

Rindu buat saya sedar yang hati saya masih hidup.

Saya patut risau jika rindu ini makin hilang.

Untuk yang telah kehilangan,
Jangan risau atau malu untuk rindu.
Menangislah.

As long as you have Him,
InsyaAllah, you are human enough.

throw back Mother's Day

Semalam Mother's Day.
bukan main rancak semua orang kat FB ngan Instagram share gambar mak masing-masing dan wishing Mother's Day to their mother's.

Harini, Nurses Day pulak.

kedua-dua harini ialah hari untuk Amma.

she was a mother and a nurse.

gosh!
i started crying just by writing this few lines.

*pause*

this year, celebrating Mother's Day is painful.
because Amma is not with me anymore.
i changed to another frequency when i listened mother's day wishes at one radio station.
i scrolled down very fast to unread the mother's day wishes at FB and Insta.

very very jelous.
trying to be tough.


but, of course, ignoring truth or run away from facts/ problem is painful too.
stay or walk away, still, i lost both wars.

and today,
i realize that, running away doesn't makes me any happier.
so, i decided to face it.
so it won't haunt me.

Right away after Amma passed away,
I was telling myself, be strong.
you can do this!

we did all the process from A to Z.
everybody was there to help us.

during that night for kenduri tahlil,
i was out of my system.
totally improper shut down.

i slept after Maghrib prayer until i woke up in the middle of the night.
it was 3 am.

suddenly,
i felt confused,
what happened? who is sleeping besides me?
and then, i walked out of the room to the living room.
everybody was sleeping. out of tired mentally and physically.

i was standing there, alone in the dark.
after some time,
i realized that Amma is not in this house anymore.
She is not coming back.
I sent her to the her new house today.
i kissed her forehead and say goodbye.

Then, i cried at the kitchen table.
as silent as i could so not to wake anybody.

that moment, was the most cruel moment that Allah's ever tested me.
that moment, i cried so much to let go the sadness in my heart.
i said to Allah
"please, allow me to cry. You put me into this grief, help me to handle it"

at some point, i was like angry towards Allah and i was like warning Him.

"I didn't ask for this, you took away my mother. And now, You must fix me!"

*pause*

you see.
we, human are weak.
when Allah tested us, we are getting weaker and we could be worst.

that's the time when syaitan would enter our heart and mind,
telling us all the wrong things... but it seems very right.

a friend introduced Yasmin Mogahed to me.
listening to Yasmin Mogahed's youtube video,
is my wake up call.

i never knew or never heard Yasmin Mogahed's name before.
gathering with friends that help us to know Allah,
to get closer to Allah,
is a blessing to me.
is a gift from Allah to me.

she said that,
the sadness, the emptiness inside my heart, is Allah's doing.
He created me, us, human.
He made our heart that way.

with a reason.
for us to fill it in with love for Him.
Lailaha illallah.
There is no God but Allah.

her metafora was:
we have a car and car need fuel to move.
but, instead of filling it with fuel, we fill the car with water.
the car won't move smoothly.
i will be broken.

*pause*

that's what i have been doing all these time.
filling my emptiness and sadness with the wrong method. wrong love.
human love is water. i broke my own heart.
Allah's love is the fuel.

Amma is not here with me now, but I have mama, umi and others.
Allah didn't leave me alone in this world.

Amma was never taken away from me.
Amma is not mine. Amma is not a thing, she is not my property.

Amma is a gift from Allah to me.
And, Amma belong to Allah.
Allah can give and Allah can take Amma away.

even me belong to Allah.

"To Allah belongs the dominion of the heavens and the earth; and Allah has power over all things."
[3: Al-Imran-189]

when I am focusing on what i have, i become more grateful to Allah.
i must thanked Allah that gave me 30 years of Amma by my side.
30 years is very long time.
Some doesn't have 30 years with their mothers.
Some have less and some doesn't even know their mother.

Alhamdulillah.
thank you Allah for 30 years of gift and blessing with Amma by my side.
She was great a mother and always will.

Bless her and help me to be good Muslim.
and my family too.
Please Allah,unite our family again in Jannah.
Amin.

Happy Mother's Day Habsah Hussin.
i miss you.

throw back #ilmfest2014

from #ilmfest2014

Sometimes, the husband are complaining.
"I tried everything to make my wife happy. I did everything for her"
(this is just an example)

my opinion, he will be tired.

The reality that most of people doesn't seem to understand is,
we, human, we can't give happiness to others.
we, human, we can't make others happy.

happiness is a feeling inside. within each heart.

happiness is NOT A THING that you can give away.
happiness is a feeling that developed from one's heart.

and, when you, yourself aren't happy, how can you make others happy?
that equation doesn't work.

if you put all hope like this: you want your wife/ husband to make you happy,
eventually, you will break your heart.

happiness is when, your heart is filled with real happiness and that what inspired others to be happy too.

because, when you have real happiness, it shows.
and, automatically you can spread the happiness to the people around you.

and, to gain real happiness, eternal happiness, you have to get it from real and eternal One.
Allah SWT.

human have weaknesses, human is temporary in this world, human will die.
how does that makes human is the source of your eternal happiness?

Allah never said its haram for man and woman to love each other.
Allah is encouraging that love among Muslims.
but, Allah wants you to love in the right way.

-- for those unmarried couple,
ask yourself, do you love your boyfriend, girlfriend, fiancee for the sake of Allah?
if your answer is yes, congratulations.
if you don't have any idea what i am talking about, relax, take a break, and keep looking for Allah's love and happiness. your are not fit for a marriage yet.
the metaphor is, how can you drive a car without learning and getting to know how to drive. the consequences could be very bad and severe. you can get into an accident and etc.

--for those married couple,
ask yourself the same question.
if your answer is yes, congratulations.
if the answer is no, start from now to learn. fix is better than giving up. this is very important. why? to have long lasting marriage. you don't know how much its affects children's when family institutions break down.

--for those single man/woman
to feel little jealous is normal.
but, blaming Allah for not giving you spouse is not.
when you have Allah in your heart, you are happy enough.
you know that marriage is not a goal, our goal is jannah.
and marriage is only a means, or tools to go to jannah.
besides marriage, there so many other tools that you can use to collect the reward, to gain Allah's redha, as a preparation to jannah.

in the end, when you die, you die alone.
its always between you and Allah.

have you prepare yourself for that?

hilang

hilang.

lost.
kehilangan.
come across in our life in several forms.


semalam,
kita have the perfect family.

harini,
bonda sudah tiada.


semalam,
kita have all teeth complete in numbers.
bila kita senyum, semua ada tersusun.

harini,
kita merana sakit teramat,
dan menanggalkan yang sakit,
adalah satu kehilangan yang perlu.

harini,
bila kita senyum, ada satu rongak di situ.


semalam,
kita masih selim,
muat baju size S dan M.

harini,
jangankan L, XL pun tak muat. sendat.
beli baju hanya yang mahal kerana susah dapat size yang sesuai.


semalam,
kita ada ramai kawan2,
ketawa, sedih, tidur, makan sama2.

harini,
ada kawan dah pindah,
ada kawan dah ada keluarga sendiri,
ada kawan yang tak lagi bertegur sapa,


semalam,
kita masih muda bertenaga.

harini,
naik tangga tingkat 3 pun mengeluh.


ah,
banyak yang saya dah hilang.



dem!


look where are we now.
take care of what we have now.
jangan sampai hilang.............