coming back to UTP....after almost 1 year.
it seems too close and i am not ready yet.
when i asked myself, when will i be ready?
i don't know.
i don't have the answer.
have u ever look at the face of your mother while she was sleeping?
tell me.
have you ever listen to her snoring sound every night?
tell me.
*my tears coming down*
*senyum*
intan, u r such a baby!
haha..
*lap air mata di pipi*
ok. now i am grown up.
half of me says i don't want to go
half of me says i have to go.
the point is, i can't follow what my heart want to, i have to do what i have to do. not what i want to do.
and because of that, i have to go back.
go back to...
the hostel room
the very very hot weather
the cafe food
the pathway walk to the lab @Block 2
the library
the tutoring class
marking the lab tutorials assignment
the meeting with supervisors
the stress from the management
the journals with 1000 words to read
the research
the conference
the smile of my colleagues
the library where i am free to sit wherever i want to
the mosque - miss it so much
the Al-Quran lesson every Saturday
the walk to the lab during weekend
the discussion with colleagues
attending someone's viva
trying and cooking new recepies from international students
the very cheap pasar malam Taman Maju
bus ride every Wednesday to go to pasar malam
to have ifthar at the mosque and pray solat Sunat Terawih together
a chance to challenge myself
to see how far can i go
how well i am doing to achieve my dreams
to see how 'taf' i've become as i claimed.
wow..
tanpa sedar, i wrote all those things that i feel nice about utp.
bak kata para penceremah motivasi:
think positive!
i actually loved that "jin bertendang" place.
haha
Ya Allah, ikhlaskan hatiku. nasihatiku.
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